Hilarity ensues each time I try to write this porn prompt with the key phrase of ‘therapy’. It keeps getting more and more corny like a bad 80s porn plot.
"Show me on the doll where you want me to touch you."
What would you say is the limitation(s) of her ‘new’ Caspira mask/persona/identity? Considering the current(?) identity crisis she seems to be undergoing ‘as’ Caspira: between whom/what she once was, the person she has (artificially?) constructed/built herself to be over the last decade or so (Caspira?) and all those others she necessarily needs to act/be, at least intermittently? (did I get it all?) Which, if any, of these persona would you also say is now her (most) ‘true self’? [1/1]
I’ve tried to answer this a few times but kept going off tangeant, so let me see if I can keep my explanations straight ( I love these questions, they force me to take a better look at my characters and their interactions. Plus, really, who -doesn’t- love talking about their toons.)
Edit: Oops I went off on a tangeant. Anyway.
The persona of “Caspira” had always been a sort of resting state in the times between infiltration assignments. Cipher Twelve without the rigid sense of formality/professionalism. When Caspira was taken off long term infiltrations (a combination of a mission she nearly destroyed several years back and a second look at her occasionally erratic behavior as pertains to an obsessive and angry streak) she no longer had a goal-and-mission oriented persona to fall back on and was forced to try and make a life as a “normal person”. She has to separate herself from how she used to behave as Cyra because normal people do not act with the same entitled nature of a Sith but at the same time she never put much thought into “Caspira”. So, “Caspira” became her identity and it’s a pretty shoddy one at times.
It had been years since Damry had spared a thought for Khireno; she’d done her duty to the Regiment and the Empire by adhering to her responsibility as a Sith Lord and sending the failing acolyte back to Korriban to succeed or to die. Of course there had been a moment of regret at the look of horrified shock on his face and his hasty attempts to plead his case, but he had become a risk to them all with both his inexperience in battle and how often he seemed to come into peaceful contact with Republic forces. At one point she may have wondered if he’d lived or died, but it had been a passing thought and not worth interrupting her delicate work to chase down.
So when she opened the door to her Shaddaa shop, she didn’t recognize the pale and hooded man standing in the neon glow. There was the flicker of acknowledgement - Sith - and that was all. Even when he tipped his head up and cast off the hood that had hidden his face, he looked so little like the acolyte she remembered that recognition did not come. What she did notice and failed to react to was the slippery orange sheen to his pale eyes and how it made her stomach knot.
His lightly scarred lips tipped into a pleasant smile. “Invite me in.” Damry was moving before she had even registered his words and her intention to tell him to politely buzz off until the shop reopened the next day… never came.
"Come in, please."
((Damry and Khireno: porny, non-consensual, dubious consent, mind control, torment, etc.))
Karcen wasn’t sure what to do. There was a clear rift in the thing he knew he should do and the thing he wanted to do but the person he would usually turn to when faced with such a dangerous moral dilemma was gone. Dead. Alyrian… his Master, his mentor, his aunt, his family.
Because of Jack Cody.
And that only made the rift all the more wide and the footing all the more slippery and he’d spent days following and watching and planning only to come up with nothing when the moment finally came.
The hangar was empty, no telling how long he’d stood there at the bottom of the ramp with nothing but grey-brown-black in the center of his mind and his eyes fixed on a point that knew-would know decision, but there was none of the clarity he had hoped for. Not when the hangar was empty. And not now, as the door opened and Jack stepped out. The man-monster-crimina-killer-Father he’d always wanted to meet.
Edrei wasn’t certain what he had expected walking through that door. Oh, sure, he’d hoped for something like this in the same way of teenage fantasies and idle daydreaming and lately the face he saw in his mind had inexplicably become hers but… but…
Fantasies weren’t meant to come true. That’s why they were safe, why it was something he could always fall back on when his mind needed something pleasant to latch onto. But this was happening. It was. And unlike those safe and enjoyable fantasies he didn’t have a single smooth thought come to mind.
Roxy lifted her head from where it had been set against the slick wood walls of the sauna and fixed him with an expression that was both sly and amused and he felt his cheeks get hotter still as he tried not to look straight at her. At the towel slung low across her hips and her long fingers stretched across her thighs just above the knee, palms settled on the edge of the towel. Mostly he tried not to look at her bare chest. The task became more difficult when she rolled her spine up in a loose limb stretch and looked his way, glance dipping to the hard grip he had on his towel.
Unprepared. That was how he felt.
Of course, your answer now just made me curious as to who this “handful of trustworthy people” (whom, if I remember right, you have at least alluded to before) are and her history and current relationship (if any beyond the mentioned) with them. Do you think this ‘aspect’ of her ‘cover-up’ is something that may possibly be further explored/tested/exposed in the future (if it hasn’t already)?
Well, the “handful of trustworthy people” are just faceless NPCs who helped to create her current identity and don’t really consist of anything but background cutouts, though it could certainly be explored further. I enjoy keeping some things purposefully vague because it does allow for change/further planning.
Her cover-up could certainly be explored further, but her past as a Sith was mostly something to add background flavor to her current situation and afford a certain animosity/superiority to what she feels her current job/station entails. Caspira is a person who could have been great, could have had real power, and who has been reduced to a position of what is essentially servitude to people she occasionally considers her ‘lessers’.
So being a Sith plays an important part of who she used to be, and what made her how she is, but isn’t something I ever intend to exploit or have her return to. Cas will never have an unexplained or miraculous return to power or her connection to the Force restored (in anything other than casual what-if writings) and she’s unable to use her past connections or power as a Sith because that would open her up to reprisals from enemies she made as a young and haughty Lord.
Why has nobody who has worked ‘on’ her since she became “Capira” ever noticed her past/true nature as a force user. Correct me if I am wrong, but isn’t that something that should still remain on some levels, despite her ‘damage’, and could show up on blood works. The chances increasing considering the paranoid nature of the Empire combined with how often she seems to require medical help. Wouldn’t somebody by now have noticed something? Even if only by a standard/forbidden/accidental screening.
Stand by while I pull things out of my ass 8D
It’s a possibility that it would show in bloodwork I suppose, but without the Force and it’s connections really being understood aside from a vague understanding of how ‘midicholrians’ work, it’s hard to say. When they’re present in enough numbers you get the Force but they’re still supposed to be present in all livings things so it’s possible that the injury that she suffered somehow stopped/stymied the production of midichlorians within her system in the numbers needed to attain Force Sensitivity.
Wookiepedia is sorta vague in stating that "How the Jedi detected Force-sensitives in their early millennia was lost to time, but shortly after the Battle of Ruusan in 1000 BBY, midi-chlorians were either discovered by them for the first time, or rediscovered after having lost knowledge of them in an earlier era—at least one Jedi, Hestizo Trace, had known of the existence of midi-chlorians as early as 3645 BBY.” So it also doesn’t seem to be a common or well-known science within the time that SWTOR falls.
If you’re looking for the reason why people haven’t discovered that “Hey, Caspira’s blood matches up with the blood of this ‘dead’ Lord Cyra”, Cyra traded everything she had built up as a Lordling - contacts, information, power, blackmail data, etc - to make herself vanish. New records, new identity, etc and part of that was to purge anything about Cyra that could possibly be used against her. Paying off the right people could certainly corrupt some data, make it disappear, or just replace it with something else that would be a dead end.
Granted, I’m sure that doesn’t cover everything and there would still be ways of finding out who she was. The old Sith allies that she used to trade off her old life for a new one occasionally call on her to do their dirty work, but protecting her identity is within their best interests as well and so it’s a secret shared between only a handful of trustworthy people.
Will you post anything (more specific) about what took place between Caspira and Laz’ab in connection with her apparently inviting and them visiting the/Lord Cyra’s/her grave site and/or the aftereffects of this?
I disconnected during the RP so I don’t have the full logs, but I think Sak/Laz’ab was able to capture them. It was a pretty great RP and a lot of fun and when she gets the chance to slow down over the Holiday season and all her travels, I intend to at least wheedle the screenshots from her so I can compile them into a post-able RP :D
But for those who are curious, she invited Laz’ab to her grave and told him her past via creative storytelling, they sniped and fought with one in an amusing role reversal : Laz’ab baiting her and Caspira being the one to fall apart a little bit. Until Laz’ab snapped and she was forced to “stabilize” to save herself long enough for them to both find their feet. (Laz’ab’s use of random /rolls for mood reaction makes for consistently unpredictable and fun RP.)
While Laz’ab believes what Caspira told him (he’d has his suspicions for a while since she’s played ‘Sith Games’ around him before) when he told Azil’mort the doctor passed it off as another of her lies. So while Caspira feels secure in another person knowing her secret, Laz’ab is questioning whether or not she was honest with him. Again.
When Tholgeth had her 'original' eyes replaced, did he (alternatively who/whatever did the actual eyeball removal and/or disposal) notice (or possibly confirm?) that she had been concealing her true (eye) colours? If so, did this this garner any sort of reaction (that she possibly overheard, if she was still conscious and aware enough at that point)?
Though it’s not something where the details had really been discussed, Tholgeth did the eyeball removal/replacement himself and was probably aware that she had been using long-term eye coloration (either through crazy SCIENCE dyes or incredibly long term contacts). Agents are pretty prone to using appearance altering techniques over the course of their lives so I doubt it caused too much suspicion, but Tholgeth is pretty sharp and with both her altered eye coloration and some of her operational history; he will eventually find out who she is/was.
Caspira is mostly emotionally scarred at having her eyes taken from her and through that, the last bits of who she used to be.
Ahhh Cas, you used to have such pretty eyes.
Colored my sidebar image because WOOHOO COLORING. Empty lineart = fun.
Damry and Seyana for their respective players in Death’s Regiment. Girls kick butt, yep!
For Ranai because I told her if she wrote a thing I would draw a thing and it was meant to be just a refined sketch but omg I had the last image in my head and absolutely needed to reach that conclusion. So enjoy hot (dream sequence) romance, Caspira and Terallo style.
Caspira portrait for my in-progress character sheet. Hers needed a redraw but everybody else is just getting colored versions of the the black and white sidebar portraits X3
Had been working on this for a while but got frustrated over skintone issues and dug it back out today for some busy work between letting commissions ‘cool’ and voila.
Caspira and Birdy! Cas, because, she's such a complex and very interesting character and Birdy, 'cause he seems like fun! XD
My two favorites as well :3